I had a nightmare...and out of all the dreams I've ever had to consider this one as a nightmare seems kind of silly to me. It's all relevent I guess, because I was really stressed and I freaked out in the dream like I never did before... it's so sad now that I think about it but I am just glad that it was only a dream. I hope its just a dream, not a premonition. THis is what my dream was about... I missed a whole day of work and hung out with friends thinking that it was a wednesday, a day that I knew I couldn't go in but in reality it was only a tuesday. The thing is I didn't explain to Kenny that I wouldn't be coming in on wednesday even though I thought I had perfectly good reasons why I couldn't go in. So on tuesday I didn't go to work thinking oh it's wednesday, not given any reason... until I realized it myself and called in to apologize, he was so pissed, sounded so cold.. and just wanted to hang up the phone. I tried explaining, but I realized even my explanation doesn't make sense because even if it was wednesday and I don't show up, it wouldn't have been okay since I never gave him a notice or warning. The dream seemed so real, so long... I was so stressed, thinking how could this be, and how I still have some time to rush into work, etc.... until I finally woke up and realized it was a saturday morning... I think this is a sign that I need a break soon.

Anyway, this is the week before my . , I can tell I am getting more irritable. I just wish I don't get cramps, headaches, more pimples, and hopefully I get less mood swing... but I can already tell you that one is a bit hard to control. As I was just sitting here in Jon's room watching TV, I can't help but to get irritated at his roommate Chris who came in to check his dumb fantasy whatever score.... while I was typing and watching TV. That was okay until they started talking about their score while I sat there trying to watch the TV, so I turned it up trying to hear yet I was called "hard of hearing". It's like why don't you two fucking shut up and go outside and chat.... yeah I know Fred is sleeping, oh is it really gonna wake him up because my TV is so loud or more like your conversation was even louder? Fucking annoying...

Maybe it's just me, I was warned last week to not get irritated because it is the end of the month but shit if I can help it then I wouldn't act this way would I? And gees, if you don't want to be the one having to deal with a period on a monthly basis then the least you can do is to live with it... fuck.. live with it while it is happening to someone else. okay. I must be irritated. time to sleep