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so Joyce called today and informed me that her wedding date has been pushed up to December 30th. I really want to attend her wedding except I do want to go back to Taiwan as well, to visit my family and friends. I know she'll be going to Taiwan for her honeymoon and I'll see her in Taiwan but I really don't want to miss it! I want to watch her walk down the aisle!!! She has been engaged to Skyler for a while now and we've all been waiting for this day~ I'm very happy for her-- we were roommates for so long and I've seen her relationship mature through out those years, it would be nice to be there at her wedding to witness her dreams come true. They are cute, and I can't wait for them to have kids... ohhh their kids would be so adorable!!! Half white half Taiwanese... awwwwww
anyway at least I got a glimpse of the wedding gown... hmmmm.... hmmmmmmmmmm I think it fits her....?! I would love to see her in it b/c frankly I can't say I would ever want to walk down any aisle in that designer's collection. But somehow I get a feeling that it would just fit her so well, so girly, like a Princess-- she'll look so beautiful! Aye... weddings.... it looks like I'll be attending at least one per year? Great... Luckily this time I'll have a dress that I actually like to wear for these weddings... sorry ladies you'll see me in the same dress. Oh wellz... I wonder who's next? I guess this is why it's so hard for me to ignore my age. I was doing so well man, but events like that makes it hard for me to play dumb... too many people and too many things act as a constant reminder of how old I am, how behind I am, and how little time I have... I really want to be done with school and find a fabulous job that I love which will sponsor me; I need to know that I will be successful and that things (in all areas of my life) will work out the way I envisioned. I can't afford a failure right now... I know I always say that but it's true, I can't afford mistakes.
aye.. tired.
I need to sleep.
I look forward to a GOOD dream, please, much needed...