i should really sleep now while the CVS knock off of dayquil is working. I'm not cold anymore. Body temperature back to normal. Nose... throat... still feel the icky-ness a bit but it definitely feels a lot better than 15 min ago. Maybe the hot shower helped too. I want to sleep, but I'm up, almost as if i'm waiting for someone... well I am and I hate it. Being sick and perhaps pmsing as well, I am actually paranoid. I actually am more emotional than usual. Just can't get my mind off of things, things that are created by me for the most part. Don't know why or where did these weird, random thoughts come from, but they annoy me. Simply put, I annoy myself... maybe I should sleep.

I hate the missing feeling. I almost "miss" and wish I was busy again... having down time just means having more time to make up weird and negative scenarios in my head, which isn't healthy in any way. But no worries, I'll be super busy soon, given my final Thesis Class starts Monday. I just hope this damn cold / flu or whatever it is will go away soon. I can't stand it... I hate being sick too. This is just a hate blog isn't it...

today uncle asked me some funny questions. I think he's really curious about my relationship now. Either he noticed that I'm quite serious, or this is more serious or that he's just bored. Either way I was surprised when he asked me questions... couldn't help but laugh.

anyway. f this. I'm annoyed.. I want to sleep. I just hope I won't get a fever again.