who am I kidding. I can't sleep until I complete my dumping exercise. so 97, hard to ignore. though we never spent any b-days together (minus one) but we've always made acknowledgement on the dates. Aye...

and is it true, that "I can't depend on anyone else but myself and my family" will always be my mentality? Yes and no... he was dependable. it's me who wasn't dependable in that role with him. And yes, I do feel like only I can take care of myself and protect myself until someone proves to me otherwise. I'll be more than glad to let someone else take care of me as soon as I feel he is worthy of me letting go full control, until then I am the owner of my heart my happiness and my future. In fact I will always be, but I'm willing to consider a partnership if the partner can be trusted. On the other hand, would I make a good partner? Aye....

also, it's different he says, "f'ing a girl and doing a girl you care about is really different. it's unfulfilling, do miss just the cuddling". "doing a girl" still doesn't sound too good, he then switched to "making love or whatever".... Aye...


some words just don't seem to fit in our dictionary...