Wow I feel very productive today. I didn't really waste any time and I'm almost done with the first floor's furniture plan--- basically a lot has changed, the residential part is now upstairs (back to my original concept) and the commercial part is downstairs. This way the resident artist can take advantage of the more prestigious view on the North side-- The Potomac River-- and also get the softer consistent northern light, in addition to the woods on the South side. As for the guests, they will have the beautiful woods to look out to, and at the same time take advantage of the open courtyard for outdoor dining. The tricky part is whether I want to minimize western exposure or should I go ahead and create window walls and just utilize solar shades to shield the UV but keep the view semi transparent. I want to have the view available from almost all direction but I don't want the guests to fry under the sun. So basically I've kept the barring walls w/o much modification on the first floor with added window walls, however I can't say I'm happy with the current layout of the second floor and a lot of modifications needed. I just hope this final draft will get the teachers approval so I can start on the model this week. I am not going to make the same mistake twice and leave things until the last minute... it seems as though I've lost a couple years of life during those couple nights and I'm not going to do that again!!! Not to mention I have another project (group) to work on... should be fun but I know we need more time. Understated elegance should be the concept, I wonder if they would agree? Either way I just want to make sure there's no time mgmt issue this time around. I only have two full weeks left to make it work.. MAKE IT WORK MAKE IT WORK!!

Anyway, today's a strange day. First I yelled at some Mexican neighbors of mine (I think...) when I ran out like a mad woman because I had just realized my car was parked in a "temporary tow away zone". I was so scared that my car wouldn't be there so when the neighbors whistled and made comments when I rushed by, I just turned around and said "fuck you shut the fuck up!". After I saw my baby and drove it back to my designated parking space, I huffed and puffed out of the car, slammed the door real hard and just marched up to the neighbors saying "do you have a fucking problem? HUH!?" while pointing at them. Then one of them got nervous and pointed to the other guy hinting that he was the one who made the inappropriate noises earlier so I walked up to him pointing at him "you got something to say? What is your problem? You want to say something? Don't fucking make any kind of comment when I walk by ever again!" before I walked away. I really wish I had an umbrella or golf club or something with me, I mean not to hit them with but just to scare them. In fact I should do that... I should have some kind of a tool other than bags of fabric in my trunk... I mean what can I do with the fabrics? Smother them with... shit...

Then at night Connie cooked for me per our agreement, like I said ppl need to feed me when I do work for them. IF they cannot afford me then at least feed me. Anyway so went over and had a very good but simple dinner... all I got to say is she's lucky we are related b/c that dinner was definitely not worth the amount of physical labor I put in tonight. Doing research, this and that's fine but physical labor!! My hands hurt soo bad... no wonder the instruction stated specifically for ppl to wear gloves while installing the furniture legs. What seemed to be a simple task really took 50% of energy out of me... IKEA's quality is getting worse, that's all I got to say.

One last thing... right now when roommate and I switched cars, I saw this guy sleeping right there on the floor in front of my spot. I was so worried that I was going to accidentally pull in too close and run him over. Now come to think of it, was that the same guy as the one that I yelled at? Should have run him over... j/k. But what the hell is going on, oh and there was another guy who seemed drunk that just sat there on the staircase. That was a bit strange... especially w/ dim lights... okay I am really getting a golf club and I am going to leave one in the car, and one in the apt. A golf club, a wooden sword, whichever... see this is what I should tell my dad and make him realize what a big mistake he made when he decided not to teach me any kong fu... I mean I am the "weak" one afterall.

OHHHH yeah speaking of which, S.L. made a comment about my manual labor tonight, he said "oh gosh you girls"... or something to that effect... I mean what the fuck? That really gets on my nerve and honestly, don't ever make any kind of sexist comment around me b/c I'll make sure you eat it. F... am I pmsing or that ppl should have been smarter about things? Either way don't fuck with me... I'm definitely not the person you want to mess with...

K back to work. YAY!!

Arghhhh!!! How many times can they pull this S on me!!! I MEAN GEES!!!!!!!!!!!! They are the most irresponsible most inconsiderate and rude adults I know. If I wasn't in this situation playing this parent role I would have made sure they hear my every thought and every insult possible. Gosh... I know dad's just going to laugh again and say "well he's your brother, you gotta do what you gotta do!"

See he doesn't understand, I don't have any issue taking responsibility or playing the sis/parent role, but I have an issue when other ppl are involved and supposedly taking responsibility then suddenly dropping out in the last minute. This is the third time their action contradicts their words, I just can't trust them! It wouldn't have mattered if the POA from the beginning was for me to pick them up from school and take them to the airport, I would have done so gladly and would have arranged my schedule to accommodate it. But now, I was suddenly told that I need to go pick up my bro on saturday when all along the plan was for them to take the couple to the airport together. They've done this way too many times and it almost feels as though they are taking advantage of me and of the situation, knowing that no matter what I wouldn't leave my brother stranded. I mean is it because I'm young? I'm in school? What is it? I have no life? I don't share the same political interest? I mean what exactly is this about? Is it b/c they were able to get away with it once, twice, and now three times? They think I'm THAT easy going? Or do they think they are entitled to change the rules of the game whenever they please? I don't know and I cannot guarantee that THIS TIME AROUND I"LL STAY QUIET. They are really pushing it... I am getting close to my boiling pt and as much as I care to maintain a friendly relationship and to represent the YENs well, I really don't know and can't promise that I'll keep my mouth shut. The only thing that's keeping me from doing anything remotely inappropriate (according to my dad's standard) is that the kids are dating, and she's graduating. I wouldn't have to see them or deal with them ever again.

Aye... this is when I question whether adults do deserve respect or not... apparently some of them deserves nothing but a fake smile and a reluctant "hi". I probably won't even be able to squeeze out a hi... the fake smile will do just fine. Gees, even that's hard for me to do... maybe I need to make sure I don't see them at all. Actually I can't avoid the inevitable... I will have to play nice and keep my cool. It's going to be so hard, it will be like a test on how well I can control my emotions and how well I can hide my emotions. Perhaps I need to take someone who's more outgoing and talkative with me.... hmmm someone who can fake it well... someone who can act--- AH HA! Weiko! Hope he's free...


Play it nice play it nice play it nice play it nice...
I HAVE NO CHOICE BUT TO PLAY IT NICE ........