"it is odd how a woman's purse looks so good on me, a man!" Uni-sex! U n I sex! Ahhh

He said "it's okay if you let me down, but don't let yourself down". I think to myself "oh shit he's got me". DO YOU READ THIS BY ANY CHANCE? HOW IS IT THAT YOU KNOW ME SO WELL? SO YOU MUST KNOW HOW MUCH I WOULD LOVE TO LEAVE AND GO TO AMSTERDAM AND THAT I DO NOT WANT TO TAKE YOUR POSITION B/C NOT EVERYONE WANTS TO BE IN YOUR PLACE! Seriously, all the "I dare you", the challenges, the "do not let yourself down" is beginning to scare me. I have taken up on the challenge, I am taking the dare and I won't let myself down... but the truth is I am nervous and scared. It's like public speaking in a foreign language.

So much more to think about and say but I am so tired. I realized I spend too much time contemplating about work, when I should focus on... what classes can I take, what other stuff can I do....... I am too sleepy to think.... must sleep