Little depressed, little lazy, wish to change, to walk away, to find a friend, and spend a day. To be around people who care, sing with, laugh with, dance with. To go back to where I came from, explore the possibilities, explore other options, to try a different lifestyle, to do different things.

Or. To try harder, focus on what I got. Appreciate what I have... and make it better. This sadness is probably just a sideaffect of the holiday season... maybe taking days off in the middle of the week only made me lazier... maybe we need more holidays in the U.S.