OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH K! Wireless connection no longer works at my apt, the cable modem we finally signed up for worked for about a day, and I had all these stuff that I wanted to write about and they've been stuck in my busy head now I don't even know where to begin. Hmmm let's see: LA = ocean and I've been swimming around catching all the fish. It's strange, it isn't like I'm out there purposely looking for things but it's either I attract them or they attract me. Mutual attraction on couple occasions but that's not the point, the point is they are either all pisces or aquarius. Seriously I have no idea why this happens, I mean goodness even my roommate is a pisces. Ahhhhhh nothing surprises me anymore... they say opposites attract? Well yup it SURE seems that way~! But one prob though, nothing nothing ever ever ever come out of any kind of mutual attraction I have with a pisces, or aquarius. Yes, those feb babies.. and march I guess (something new out of this whole equation I suppose). Another thing, all these ppl are literally babies!! They are all the youngest one in their family, what is up with this? A friend of mine joked about me having maternal instinct and that these babies are looking for someone to take care of them... well to be honest I want to be taken care of. I don't want to take care of anyone anymore. I have myself to take care of and that's plenty. But can I complain though? I mean I was going out of my mind sitting at home not meeting anyone new for like 9 months and now that I am meeting really cool and interesting ppl left and right, I really can't complain can I? :) Well I'm not gonna, I'm just having fun and enjoying getting to know ppl, even though I find them to be quite similar in more ways than they can imagine. Oh another thing I thought was interesting, all these new faces started to come into my life the day I officially moved into my Apt. Why is this so important to note? Well b/c I remember this very very clearly, that f.t from vegas said this to me when I asked him whether I'll be meeting anyone soon back in October of 2004-- "well you aren't gonna be meeting anyone staying at home, you gotta get yourself out there". See I thought he meant I need to go out more and hang out, which I did, but nothing ever happened however as soon as I moved out, that same night, I started to meet ppl.

And w school, lets just say I know what I am doing. Or at least ppl seem to agree with what I am doing and I'm just really really proud and happy. I don't even care that some folks like to make comments regarding my lack of job right now b/c frankly I don't give a damn. The truth is we all choose the lifestyle we want, and I am aware that to a certain degree one can say "well u know there's bills to pay it really isn't a choice", but seriously, sholve it up your ass. I've been through that, I had to work more than any of you mofos have to now and I too had to wake up early before, had to stay in late, had conference calls even on weekends, had business trips (international ones as well mind you) and had to stress about getting work done. I STILL DO, just different kinds of work. Don't tell me that I got nothing to do and that I can wake up at any time I want, which is true, but I live my everyday to the fullest. So what I'm not working, why does that bother some ppl so much? If it doesn't bother me then what is it to you? It's not like I'm just sitting on my ass wasting life away, in fact I'm making the most of my life given the things I have to work with, which is quite a lot compare to some ppl and I'm really thankful for that. But still, in case ppl don't understand, I SAVED, and now I can use what I saved. I'm loving my life more now than ever, I'm totally happy and there's not one moment do I feel depressed about the things I have to do. Why not? B/c these are exactly the things I want to do; drafting, designing, building models, even painting color chips. I'm building my resume, and yes one can think of it that way and yes, it is a two year process at minimum but ultimately, I'm a step closer to my dream as each day goes by. I don't know how many ppl out there can say that with a smile one their face.

And yup, I've concluded that I'm gonna be happy the way I am-- an interior designer in training, a student, a happy person even though by the time I'm done with school I'll have absolutely no savings left. But I'll be a happy broke person.