oh man I don't know what's wrong with me. is it from not eating properly? is it b/c I premeditated the "I have cramps therefore I can't go to work today" scheme which made the cramp not only a reality, but something else that was far worse than just cramps? At least I wasn't lying ... :P

Tango was great despite my low energy level. This guy who wasn't always friendly suddenly became pretty friendly and had asked me to go to a tango club on wednesday night after class. Uh... and he actually smiles and says "thank you" now when before he was completely expression-less, semi rude and arrogant. Wow, what a change. But tango club is out of the question. I know its just so we can practice but I'll continue to practice with my imaginary dance partner. Nothing against the guy but I just don't feel too comfortable meeting ppl from class outside of class plus, I prefer to not wrap my legs around ppl I don't know too well when it isn't necessary.

Anyway I do feel very tired. Not just physically but mentally. I want a vacation, a break. I want to get away for a bit... maybe Hawaii? Catalina Island? Preferably Bali Island but that's just not very realistic is it? I want to lay down on a pearly white sandy beach with warm breeze lightly brushing against my body. I want to experience the full on spa treatment in a semi outdoor but private area underneath a little hut with the view of an infinity pool. I want to bath in a marble bathtub filled with rose pedals with a view of the ocean (even though I don't really like roses). I want to go snorkeling and laugh at everything for no good reason. I want to take a hot air balloon ride even though I'm afraid of heights. Someday they will become a reality. Right now... I just want to sleep and ignore all responsibilities.

I wonder if this is how my dad feels. probably.