... I need to remove myself from this sofa. I'm not only trapped in this room I'm also trapped by my own inability to see beyond this point. Not only am I stuck in the world of sketchup, autoCAD, I'm also feeling quite defeated by the frustration that seems be mounting by the hour. I am really at a lost. There's so much that I want to do, that I need to do, but can't seem to get there "in time". Anxiety is ever increasing and I'm at a point where I could have a mental breakdown at any given moment. I'm exhausted, and I just want to run away. I want to have a break. I really look forward to this winter vacation even though I will still need to find time to do work. Once again, no real break. However I do look forward to the week that Grace is there, that's the week that I will fully relax and just enjoy her company. I'm going to have a blast with her and I just hope we can both find the strength and happiness that we seem to always find from each other. Bruce is right. It's probably a good idea if we can see each other more often, we bring each other pure joy and happiness, there's just something about the two of us when we are together... I can't wait.

Anyway. Annoyed... but will not think about it b/c I don't want to waste my time and energy feeling irked by something that's obviously going to happen again and again, time after time. Aye... just typing it makes me mad.