after a night of feeling crappy and angry and all, I've finally came to a new conclusion-- moving out is the best thing to do. Whether I can afford to purchase a house and become one of those lucky home owner or whether I will be renting for the rest of my life, I should still move. Why? B/c I can't live at my uncle's forever anyway. It is afterall their house. I know we are comfortable with the living situation since I've been here for almost 14 years, but ultimately this is their house, not mine. I don't know if this has occurred to my parents but it really isn't about saving money, it is about doing what's right. They never mention anything to me about moving out, in fact they think it's dumb of me or Connie to move out b/c we are wasting money, but come to think of it I'm only their niece, I'm not their daughter. I'm happy that they've made room for me in their lives for the past 10+ years, we've had our conflicts, our ups and downs but it is time I grow up and live at my own place. I need to have my own place, I need to be able to unpack everything that belongs to me and set them at where I want them to be. I need to arrange things the way I want and I need to learn how to cook and support myself effectively. I know there's really no rush, and who knows I might move again (across the world) in a few years when I'm done with school, but for now, I should still look into buying a place or renting a place seriously. This isn't about Levi having a place, this isn't about cutting down the commute, this is about building a new foundation and preparing for the future. I think having my own place would be easier for friends to come, for families when they come and visit. Afterall they can't always stay over at my uncle's right, two families in one household is just to much, way too crowded.

I don't know where my brother will be, whether he will stay on the east coast or will he move to the west coast, but at least he knows he will always have a place to go to too if he ever decides to come over. I will be looking around for places to live, to rent, I hope something will come up soon that's reasonably priced. I am hoping to live in this area, near my uncle's house. If I don't find anything, well I will still probably move to LA--- I just hope that lady writes me back b/c the location of her apt is exactly what I am looking for.

Moving is fine, as long as I find a good place, and as long as I won't have to move again for a while. Levi needs not move anymore too... poor cat, being with me isn't easy, is it?