found closure. funny way a brain works. or funny way a dream works... so it's clear, even if I had the chance to I wouldn't go after it. I am so proud of myself and I know for 110% that I made the right choice and my heart and my mind are still on the same page.

but must admit still feel a bit ... what's the word here ... _________ when I found out....

everything happened for a reason. must say how thoughtful and sweet the execution was, not surprised at all. it's so very much expected from the person that I believe I still know, in my heart.

sincerely happy ....