I bought my world map, I've been wanting one for so long! Now I just need colored pins to pin the parts of the world that I've been to, and use a different color for the places that I plan on visiting in 2005. But first of all, I gotta get everything else settled, I need to find a PLACE DAMMIT. Apt search is hard, I'm starting to feel a bit hopeless if not frustrated with the situation. Idealistically I would like to find a place and move in by end of Feb, we'll just have to see if I get lucky or not. Found a place that's 490 but it turned out that's b/c they are hiding a third roommate (which would be the girl currently living in the living room) from the manager who lives downstairs. So I suppose that's tough enough w/o considering the cat.

I'm still hoping and wishing or whatever that Lucy, would bring good news. I haven't met her, and the new place she helped me found only allows one cat therefore I'm back to Lucy! I wonder if she would talk to her mgmt and find out whether a cat is acceptable or not? If so then I hope I can get that place, 659 + utilities, which should come out to be around $700.00? I can pay 3/4 of the rent I believe by myself and the rest, well luckly I have an awesome dad (^_^) Gonna stay optimistic this time. I'll start bitching if I still can't find a place by end of Feb.

Other exciting news, D.Do is also considering Interior Design. It's pretty fun to be shopping for art supplies together, to think we used to walk around work complaining and bitching to each other about how much we hated our job! It's amazing now looking back, and know that there's probably a lot more ppl out there that feel the same way I felt! I thought I was all alone in my situation, and I had this huge decision to make and no one could understand. But once I did it, once I found the courage to do what I've been wanting to do, everything else just fell into place. And then the friends around me started to come to me for advice, and now they are doing the same thing! It's a great feeling I must say. D.Do quit her job in November, took her break and went to Europe with her bf and now she's enrolled in school for the same stuff. She's thinking of going to UCLA too. Another person I know has also decided to quit work and go back to school for fashion design, I mean this is just an indescribable feeling for me. It feels incredible, I just love it. D.Do told me she now knows how it feels to be sitting in that class feeling the excitment I felt, the first day in class. I wish I can meet more ppl who's been through the same things I have, more importantly I just want to meet ppl who are passionate about what they do, about their lives.

I've decided, I want to meet people, truly put myself out there this time and meet the kind of people that I wish to meet. No more being distant and closed off, I'm gonna try to change, for the better that is.

Now time to cut some wood and build some models!

One movie down n few more to go. I had a pretty fun evening tonight, and I think I'm starting to look forward to moving to LA if I find a place that is. So far I've encountered some pretty cool ppl on craigslist and even though their room's been rented out, most of them have been kind enough to help me search and keep and eye out for vacancy around their area. Some cool ppl, so willing to help, so kind. I am still hoping to move into that place on Barrington and Ohio, she seems like a pretty easy going person even though her landlord states no pets, but she's actually gonna ask her landlord for me to see if any exception can be made. How nice. She also helped me found another posting that she thought might be perfect for me... hmmm dunno I'm pretty happy with the result, even though I haven't really found a place yet. There's one that's going for 490, have my own room but will need to share a bathroom, so I think I'll check that out tomorrow night. I'm excited about this, but not looking forward to driving up again, it's gonna be a pain in the ass...

And the condo that I had my eye on, well according to my dad "it's not meant to be yours!". Yes, he seemed to find it funny that the place is already sold, arghh. But it also tells me he wouldn't rule out buying a place if it is in the same area as my uncle's house, heh I guess I'll just have to keep trying. I think I'm pretty set on moving this time around, my dad supports it except he thinks it's a poor investment decision since I'm basing it mostly on my cat... that's totally not true (ahem). I thought about it more today, the thing is I will be able to start interning (if all goes as planned) this summer, so might as well move out b/c I am assuming the better internships will all be located in LA, not OC. Watch I'll be wrong and be damned that I moved but we'll see, I've decided to take matters into my own hands instead of waiting around to see what's gonna happen. I'm gonna be proactive, even more so than last year. I'm going after what I want and will follow my heart. Mind vs Heart NO MORE, it's gonna be MIND AND HEART. Who says they can't be working side by side?

And tonight I experienced another evening out on sunset once again, it's pretty fun I have to say. First we found free parking in a structure, which everyone knows it is unheard of. Then we had this chinese food, can't say it is good but overall the conversation made the dinner better. Then we watched Sideways, I wasn't sure whether I liked it or not, I was torn but in the end I've decided that YES, I DO LIKE THE MOVIE. Especially the part where the conversation took place between Miles and Maya. I can't repeat it now but I know it got me thinking, and more importantly it made me realize that there are ppl out there, that get u. They might just be right infront of your face, you just gotta open your eyes and see what you've been missing all along. Whether out of denial, out of ignorance, out of still being blinded by a past that's no longer meaningful in anyway.. aye right now isn't a good time for me to write down what I feel about the movie b/c I'm just getting way too sleepy. But one thing for sure--- I want to take a roadtrip and I want to go wine tasting! I knew I liked pinot, but I never knew there's so much to wine... or I did but didn't, I wonder if that makes sense.

ALWAYS SO MUCH TO LEARN, SO LITTLE TIME!! :) Supply shopping with D.Do tomorrow! So excited !!