According to my Horoscope, next year is a great year for Virgos. In the area of love, money, health, and just overall, Virgos will have a wonderful, smooth year. The only thing that I should watch out for is still my health. On the other hand, for those who are born in the year of Monkey, may not have good luck b/c it is the year of monkey in 2004, that means some ceremony needs to take place to counter the bad before it arrives which reminds me , I should call home and ask them to go "bai bai" for me. Aye... maybe the two forces will cancel each other out. I rather believe in the Horoscope.
See I sort of believe in the Horoscope, I start to see my days becoming brighter, or at least work wise. You see, I just found out today that the director I have beef with, is no longer working there!!! HAHAHAHAHAHA! He just either quit or got fired 2 days ago... what an awesome choice he made, good for him and me!!! I couldn't stop smiling and laughing when I heard that and although it might have been inappropriate to show such excitment, but fuck it I can't hide it, I can't hide anything!
Last night I went to White Lotus for the first time with friends for a b-day dinner. It was fun, danced until it closed and man didn't get home until almost 4.... I can't believe we (friend and I) still came to work today. We both looked like we are about to pass out at lunch. It was so worth it though n I had such a good time. I haven't danced like that for a while and it is always nice to hear compliments from taller, blond, model look alike girls. It was truly a Hollywood scene and I think to experience that once in a while is good for the body..., specifically for your eyes--you vision. ;)
Anyway, last Sunday I went to a book launch party and I got the book "Deprivers" signed by the author. Have only met the Author once before that and his name is Steven. I met him through my cousin's friend from Amsterdam who had since became my friend, and I have to say that experience was also interesting. I felt so sex and the city that night but of course, take away the glamour b/c people there were all just real casual and chill, not to mention friendly. I liked that... it's nice, it's somewhere I'd like to be at more often. An asian girl came up to my friend and I and asked "wow it is so nice to see Asian faces in this industry, it is so rare, what do you girls do"!?? Heh, not in this industry is what we do... but hell I would love to be in that industry I think, whether it is behind the scene, or on the red carpet, or join a writer blah blah association it doesn't matter... I just liked being around creative people. Oh and on Friday night I also went to a Jeans Company's cocktail promotional sales party-- again everyone there was really casual but trendy, and again very different than people I associate with in my own industry.
It is almost strange to be saying such thing "my industry, your industry"... but it is true... you are associated with the type of work you do and more or less you blend in. You loose your edge and individuality and creativity unless you are in the "creative" industry, which would include what? Not sure but it doesn't include me... I'd like to be part of that though.. really I do. Except I doubt myself first and foremost.. I am not confident in my creativity, sometimes I can't even find it. When I do find it I say "Gees you suck, what kind of shit is this you are coming up with"... yup I do that, I talk to my creativity.. or the lack of it.
Nevermind I am just disappointing myself.. or am I? I am almost fooling myself into thinking I can do it... I wish I am a better liar so I can cheat myself and won't even know that I've been lied to.... wahhhh going nuts.
Great year coming, maybe I should try...