been coughing for almost a week now, maybe it is time I go to the doctor. I need to make time for a complete physical check up including blood sample, dental, etc... figure might as well utilize the health insurance while I am paying for it. But I hate going to the hospital, hate going to see the dentist, doctors, etc... that little kid in me is pulling me by the sleeves and holding me back... medicine? no... no swallowing kind, no liquid kind, how about just no medicine. So yes that's one thing I gotta do... then there's the car insurance that I have to start paying for... man, it's expensive... but i am thankful that my uncle is slowly asking me to pay for all those that I should pay for, so I don't freak out and panic and die of sudden high blood pressure... okay so I exaggerate a bit.
took pics of flowers, lemon tree yesterday. I want to become a photographer, an interior designer, so I ask myself what the heck am I doing sitting here THINKING about it? why not take action? But the question I have in my mind is, do I want to just get another certificate or should I seriously consider pursuing a higher education? In what? MBA? Master in psychology? What? Dad would like me to continue school, he's always asked me that and I've always said yes, in three years, but the truth is I am not so sure anymore. I know I want to go back to school, but i am not sure what I want to study anymore. The idea of having the title "Dr. Yen" appeals me, as well as the idea of being really good at something, however knowing myself I know I will not be satisfied in only knowing one thing. I've always liked to learn a little bit about everything, but the down side of that is I am not really good at anything either! So what I know a little bit about ballet, a little bit about economics, a little bit about the piano, I suck at all of them now! I want to be recognized for being the best at one thing, but what that ONE thing is I still do not know. Don't know what I want that ONE thing to be yet... maybe photography? Maybe interior design? But I already sense my lack of self confidence... is it because I know nothing about those area yet or because I sort of know, that's not suitable for me? I get a feeling that a MBA would be something that's easier to obtain for me than a certificate in interior design. I know I would enjoy both subjects, but can I handle both? What do I do? aye, I guess I still have 2+ years left to figure out..... I wish someone can give me some direction now?! Maybe I should call that psychic lady... hahah