severe case of monday blue.

Last night is the third Sunday night in a row, that I have trouble sleeping. Usually I sleep through the morning on Saturday and Sunday mornings when I am at home, but for some reason I don't get the same quality of sleep on Sunday nights. The kind of restlessness or discomfort associated with Sunday sleep is different than worknights, it is almost painful and rather annoying. I woke up with a huge knot on my right shoulder and neck area... I believe the knot's still there. I can't really turn my neck and the tension doesn't seem to go away no matter how much I try to massage it.

It was extremely difficult for me to wake up today, tons of reasons went through my head: stomach flu, shoulder injuiry (exaggeration of course), rain storm (didn't rain afterall), etc for not coming to work. Of course I put none into affect but did arrive at work 40 minutes late. I don't really care for work now, I thought once the Boss is gone I would at least look forward to work b/c of less restriction, but it is quite the opposite. It's like my energy source is gone... I see him so motivated and working so hard, I feel bad therefore I put in my 110%, but then I see all his effort going almost nowhere, or at least not far with HQ therefore I find it pretty pointless to be putting in so much. Now that he's gone for the 2 weeks I find it even more difficult to perform... I just want to leave and sleep. I don't want to be here, all the stuff I do doesn't make me happier, I wonder what's the point sometimes. I am frustrated, and lazy... more lazy than frustrated now. Done being frustrated a long time ago I think.

I don't want to work, mondays should be part of the weekend... in fact, everyone should only work on the days they want to work... I guess that's precisely what I am doing since I am writing this junk and not working. Argh... I am tired, it is only 2:44.... sad.

blah blah blah, I bitch a lot.