we've been out for about 11 hrs straight, gosh am I tired or what. but today's the last day of their thanksgiving vacation (sunday doesn't count since they must get back to school) and I figured we should really go and do something. So went to lunch, went to sing, went to the mall, went to speed zone, then went to dinner with my gfs and their bfs n friends, then went to the movie but that didn't happen since the theater ended up being completely filled except for the random one seaters and the 9 seats in the very first row. crazy, why do they even bother designing those rows--- whoever thought people would actually utilize and enjoy those front row seats are just crazy--- shitty design in my opinion. Maybe it only looks good, but not really meant to be sat in. Either way, we've been out and about for too long and all I wanted to do is to go home and just sleep. I need some peace and quiet, susan time I call it, not to mention tomorrow we gotta wake up early to go pick up his friend's tux before I drive them down to meet their other friend, and her guardians. Looks like I'll be putting on my fake smile once again, the way I see it is the more I practice the more "natural" it will look one day. I mean I guess I'm pretty good at either suppressing things, or faking things-- only when I have to.
But seriously... I rather not-- this is what's so fucking pathetic about growing up-- we learn to fake everything. Lets see, there's the whole politeness we fake when we meet new people, the smile, the laughter, the small talks, etc. And in general men fake their interests in women and in return we fake orgasm, and so on. Yup... me along with the rest of the world to a certain degree, are pathetic, and no one can deny that.
alright. I am super super super tired. I cannot wait until my winter break because I need a good vacation w/o worrying about the project due dates like right now. I'm pretty much 80% done with one project and 0% done with another... heh.. yup, F me. I fucking hate this. I'm so tired... I wish I will find a job I love that pays well after I'm done with school because I'd hate to think that all these time and energy went into absolutely nothing. I hope I'll find a great job here that will allow me to purchase a sweet home of my own, where I can decorate freely. I hope I can get a few more freelance opportunities that pay actual $ and not just dinner before I graduate... and meanwhile I hope I will meet someone who will bring positive distractions-- I welcome it, I'm done with distracting myself. (-_-)
Aye, wo fan chi la.