Awww the Simpsons.... so cute yet so wrong, but it has lost its edge. Have I lost my edge ?

So sleepy! But I have one more floor plan to complete before I can move on to sections and building the model!!! Aye but I can't stay awake anymore... I might just fall asleep here on the sofa since it is much cooler.

met up with F.P tonight, we started talking about our Thesis project... what to do what to do? Commercial vs. Residential? What is my program? I am clueless right now! Apparently we get to choose and develop our own program but right now I am so uninspired... can someone help me!? I'm open to ideas!!!

K I'm giving up doing any kind of thinking right now... my brain's.... off work for the night. (-_-)

"I am not sure yet of what that is, but I know it shouldn't be the easiest, and it wouldn't be the most obvious. A lot could happen, a lot could change... or nothing will change, it all depends on what happens in the next few months." jan 17 04.

took a break from CAD work (to relax my eyes, to get back into reality) and decided to look back into the past once again to remind myself of how far I've come. And wow, I'm pretty good at predicting my own future... hmmmmmmmmmmmmmm I guess nothing really took me by surprise since I was always able to know (intuitively or based on observation)and to have a pretty good sense of what's coming up. The interesting thing is that I said whatever I choose to do as plan B wouldn't be easy... ain't that the truth. This interior design, this profession is definitely not easy. Sometimes I wonder if I do make my life more difficult? If I am choosing the road less traveled on purpose or is it a subconscious decision? Either way... this is definitely what I had chose for myself and I enjoy every single bit of it! Regardless of how frustrating, tiring this can be. It's all very meaningful in the long run-- yup! Another prediction that is! I think I'm definitely going in the right direction and I'll be more successful than I can imagine.... HEHEHEHE... Hmmmm as for other areas of life, I'll keep that to myself.

K... back to work! One more hr, I should be able to get one more floor plan out of the way... aye... tiring... but I LOVE IT! I LOVE MY LIFE!

don't even know where to begin.

got a surprise phone call last night, it was a strange feeling. it's as if I received a call from an old friend, as if A.L were to call me from Taiwan or something, except I was a bit hesitant initially. Glad to know things are going well and it's kind of nice to hear the voice again (even though I heard a lot of the "f" words among other things). The irony behind that is it was actually strangely familiar and comforting... I don't think I've ever made it clear before but I acknowledge my faults and my character flaws, and I am aware of what a horrible gf I was. He's right, he'll treat the right one really well and I have no doubt about that. I guess b/c of it I was more or less shocked by the things he shared... seems so out of character, or is it? I shouldn't be passing judgment but I can finally say I can sort of understand how he felt towards me when I was acting out of control and rather reckless that one year. Of course the difference is I'm looking at it completely detached but even so, I can't help but feel a little bit disappointed. Aye, who am I to say anything, I'm the least qualified person to make comments...


Another thing... I guess I should stop seeking others' opinion in some situations and just go with my own initial response. I don't want to loose a sense of rationality and it's silly to let certain emotions cloud my judgment or affect the way I see things... I don't want to be my own worst enemy.


Tired. I feel exhausted.