so tired, on so many different levels. thinking about it frustrated me. talking about it, disappointed me. somethings are better kept to myself. maybe i've lost a sense of self, maybe i'm a hopeless romantic, maybe i should not hope ... no expectation is sometimes safer. I guess i want to feel safe, and i don't feel safe anymore, not when things aren't always within my control. i want to be able to at least control my heart, my emotions. I think it's time i go back to all brain and no heart.

i'm tired, of feeling unsafe, and the endless disappointment

what is this, a month long pms? this reminds me of why i used to blog more at work, to vent... if i don't and if i keep everything bottled up, if i continue to hold my tongue or hold back ..... i'll eventually explode! I am not made to keep my emotions in. MORE PRECISELY, i'm not made to keep my words in! Arghh....

and i realized why i've been eating so much, i'm just unhappy! i'm stressed out! and a lack of sleep just makes it worse..... it is making me fat! and F why can't the F be stored at a more appropriate spot? such as the boobs?

i'm tired tired tired.

i don't feel happy lately! and my cynical self is creeping back in.....

what is wrong with me?!

Im fucking annoyed....