alright I just had a pretty psychotic conversation with the ex... if i didn't sign off I think I would end up breaking the computer. I'm pretty annoyed, if he keeps this up I'll probably go postal on him. I'm loosing my patience, or what's left of it. I am not sure why I allow any of this but I'm getting really fed up.

anyway, my car's battery died today. Luckily the one and only neighbor that I ever met and talked to happened to be there when I was leaving for class. He took me to class and on the way I found out he actually already moved away, he was only there to visit his old roommates. I'm really lucky if I think about it, I mean what are the chances right? So he took me to class, and Ana picked me up from class. If Ana didn't pick me up I think I would have taken the Big Blue Bus... BUS # 1, that's what Luis told me. Hehe I can't believe I was seriously considering taking the bus :P

Also I finally dropped my History I class today. I cannot believe UCLA charges $30.00 processing fee to drop classes and on top of that, they also charged me $10.00 for getting my parking refund. This is ridiculous! Why would they charge that? What is the deal? I fucking hate this, it's all bullshit.

Old boss called on Monday, he said he's been working 15 hr day at Intel, not surprising. I hope he's enjoying the job more though... I mean sometimes when you think about it, he was working as much back then at the shitty place but what a big difference! I'm sure he's actually learning more and feeling quite challenged by his daily tasks than he ever did back a month ago. Not to mention that the pay, the benefits, and of course the name Intel itself are much much more rewarding than whatever it is that he was getting. aye... why do I still hold such hatred towards the past? I mean I should be thankful, for the opportunity I had b/c without it, I wouldn't have met the ppl I met. I think everything that happen in this life are meant to happen for a reason, maybe they take place as an intro to something else, something bigger and better. Another thing, he shared that my other co worker who moved to Taiwan (and stilled worked at Alpha) actually quit! Like few weeks ago!!! He quit HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!! No wonder he's going around traveling, to Bali!!! man I'm so jealous. Not only Bali but frankly I Don't care about other places... I only care about BALI!!!! No wonder, NO wonder he was saying he has so much to share with me... ahh what a bastard! What a fucking brilliant bastard! HAHAHAHAHAH I LOVE IT. Ohhhh is it wrong that I get so much pleasure out of this? HEHEHEHEHE

alright. I gotta do homework. heh... so much homework so much oh my gosh!!! :(
Oh yeah... weird dream too--- was back at the same hotel. The guy from the hotel remembered me, except I got upgraded to this amazing suite. I wasn't alone, my friend turned into a key chain... so I had to talk to her, or talk to the key chain... something totally strange and harry potter like. But this isn't the first time I revisit a place I've only been to in my previous dream, and it's like part II of a movie, the dream continues and it just get stranger and stranger. What does it mean?

hmmmmm

:) Levi and I were playing hide and seek... it's so fun playing with cats when you understand their body language, or when you understand each other. I think that's the beauty of being in an apartment alone with a pet, you can do whatever the hell you want w/o worrying about a roommate giving you weird looks. WEll speaking of roommate, he's probably having the best time of his life in London or Amsterdam, wherever he is. I hope he brings me back something, anything as long as it is legal. Actually I just sort of want this chocolate... hmm perhaps it isn't too late? But I forgot what is it called... aye.

anyway. so new quarter new schedule and new ppl. First of all I actually enjoyed my first history class, I feel like these are useful information and it isn't dry and boring. I can actually remember the lecture w/o taking much notes and surprisingly, I had fun. The teacher is amazing, she can remember everyone's names after meeting them just once. She brings the history to live, she brings the furniture to live, she brings me to live. But after that class I realized I must be stupid to be taking an extra class this quarter... and after consulting with her and everyone who happened to be standing around us, i've decided I'll drop my other history class to be safe.

Another cool thing is I am actually making an effort to make friends. I made friends with this girl who is 9 years older than me, but I guess age ain't nothing but a number b/c we get along just fine... in fact I feel like we have the same mentality, and understanding towards a lot of stuff in life. Then another lady that was in our class last quarter who is also in our history class... shared that she has already started her interior design service like an year ago, the reason why she's back in school is b/c she's trying to gain more knowledge, etc etc. I told her about kookoon and gave her my contact information... basically told her I got nothing to do and if she ever needs any help just call me. I think my goal for now, while I'm in school, is to meet as many ppl as possible, to network as much as possible, and to learn as much as I can. I'll do anything, unpaid, as long as I can gain some experience and meet some cool ppl. In fact, I might just e-mail that guy John and ask him about his experiences with school and with work after schooling. Oh the funny thing is that lady with the interior service, she has a son who is 24 years old... eh.. hehehehehe. Na..... what am I thinking. Too weird... I think once you are in a classroom setting it's hard to even take the age into consideration, b/c I don't feel like these ladies are my elders... I see them as my equal, vice versa I hope.


What else. oh that girl... my new friend.... we sat in her car and talked until 12 something... she is a pisces... surprised? Nope.. not anymore. But I'm starting to realize I do get along just fine with pisces, as long as they don't try anything on me. B/c the ones that try-- never work. FRIENDS, I need FRIENDS... I mean I need them to know that about me b/c if they try anything other than BEING A FRIEND, then it isn't going to work!! Aye...anyway so now I'm debating whether I wanna go to Santa Barbara with her. It's for class too.. I really wanna go, but I don't know if I can be a good listener like I did last night... she talks a lot and no it isn't a bad thing. But sometimes I like to sit and not talk. Dunno... maybe I should try it out... Santa barbara huh, never been.


Oh and a talent agent or whatever guy approached me in westwood, I guess those ppl are in need of Asians for some reason. Perhaps I can pass that information to my entertainment friends... or the ones who wish to be in entertainment. I'm tempted though, right now any cash paying job would interest me, but I don't know if this would be one of those? Another thing I'm going to try and do is to volunteer more. I will be volunteering on May 7th and 8th, for smiletrain I think-- to help and translate for one of their patience. I think as long as I get to do something helpful I'll be happy, even if I don't get paid. But right now I'm starting to feel that I need some sort of income... what should I do? It pains me to see my account diminish slowly... wahhhhhh


Dad called yesterday and asked me once again whether I can get a master's degree or not. Why is it so important that I get a master's degree? Why is my certificate not good enough? I mean idealistically I would want one, but this program is designed like a master's program!! It's so demanding, it's almost intimidating the amount of workload I have. But no it doesn't give me a master in the end... and I'm okay with that. I know what I am doing and what I have to do to get to my end destination, so why can't he just trust me? B/c I don't seem to believe in myself therefore they don't see it in me either? It's going to happen, I promise. It's a promise I made to myself and I won't fail. Anyway he also told me that they finally picked a new name for my cousin... superstition or not, I hope it will make a difference. Also, they went down to Tainan to visit grandpa and to pay respect to grandma's grave... yup it is that time of the year again. I don't know but I think deep down we are all kind of worried about grandpa, his health. I'm worried, but what else can I do? I just hope he becomes healthier b/c I know we all care very much and no one wants anything bad to happen to him. Aye... I keep worrying, and usually this is not a good sign. I hope I'm just being paranoid.

Alright so classes are tougher than ever, more things to do and less time. I gotta learn to manage my time better this quarter. I say that every quarter but I think this is it, I'll be really on top of things this time.

:) Shit it is almost three... should I even bother trying to add that class? hmmmmm