kookoon is my favorite silk comforter/bedding provider!! Not b/c of any special reason but b/c I absolutely love their products. I'm loving it when I go to bed and I'm loving it when I wake up; I think I've just found the very reason why it has been that much more difficult for me to get out of bed every morning! It's incredible how a light little piece of throw can provide such warmth and comfort, not to mention that it is soooooooo ssssooooffffttttt!!! I just hope I'll eventually make enough extra cash to get myself some silky night gown or pj pants... hmmmmm that makes sleeping that much more enjoyable (it's like sleeping naked but not). It takes sleeping alone to another level, heh ('_-)

so I realized I might have been a bit emotional if not dramatic last night. I hope my message did not get across to the person that it was intended for, b/c in some sense he's right, I do change my mind a lot. But I don't change my mind for things that I take seriously... especially after I've given a lot of thoughts and time-- afterall the decision making process was not one simple task and I don't joke lightly about situations like that. I know coming from him, means a lot. I care, I always did and will. That means I made my decision with everything in consideration even though it doesn't seem like it to him, but my logic and reasons remain the same; to be true to myself and him, and most importantly to be fair, I am sticking with the decision that I've made. Maybe it is hard for him to understand it now, maybe he will see it too sooner rather than later or maybe, he will never agree with my logic and appreciate/respect my choice. But that's fine b/c I can't force my ideas onto anyone else, vice versa. Feeling, this thing, is a tough thing to deal with, it makes no sense most of the time and it creeps up on you when it's least expected. I can't say I've learned to not feel, but I sure have mastered putting feelings aside and once that's put aside, it stays hidden and sometimes lost forever. In this case... I've chose to put it in my treasure box and it will remain locked up forever, until I'm ready to feel again.