pleasure is all mine...
been a while since i've had the pleasure to stay up late, inspired, feeling the need to quickly draft out my thoughts. been a while since the family circle's complete, even if it was just for a brief 3 days. once again, pleasure's all mine. as busy as I was, the moments were great, "moments"--were what was much needed and missing in my life for some time. having everyone around felt ... alive. it's when the moment is rare, it's most precious.
time flies. just a minute ago we were all sitting around the table talking, a minute later dad's off on his way back across the ocean to a place that will always be home to me. I've been far from home for a while now. but now I have two homes. it's great. however, we really only need one, and that one should hold us all under on roof. that, is home.
how many times have i experienced such obvious gain / loss? weekly, monthly, and annually. one moment you have it all, the next you are all alone. it's probably the only constancy in all the inconsistencies. people come and go, isn't that what life's all about? the only comfort in that is you know, and hope, and believe you will see them again, in some definite time. but sometimes, the experience of learning u will not see the person ever again, can scar you for life. however, "it" is only here to prepare you for everything and anything. it has prepared me well in the face of uncertainties, or did it?
heard an awful news about a couple of weeks ago. something clicked in me. as depressing as that sounds, but it did take an unfortunate news for me to realize the meaning of us. what does it mean? marriage? what does it mean? us? what does one mean? what does unity mean? i now know, and can honestly say I get it. there's no you and i. there's only us. and i like "us". I am okay with us. i'm proud to have us... i've finally grown mature enough to understand us.
i hope, difficulties will be overcome by strength and optimism. i hope, uncertainties will be replaced by more understanding and positive feelings. i hope, wisdom is gained through this experience. i know, we will.