I know HGTV is for none professionals... (and that's why I am watching the shows and loving them), but Divine Design is really a great show! First of all she graduated from the program. Second of all her renderings are so simple but descriptive enough and honestly the end results always look just like her drawings. And of course she's one funny lady. Her and her team of ppl are hilarious! The little acts here and there, they seem to enjoy their job and that's what attracts me the most about that show specifically. They work so well together and the designs are truly divine, and most importantly they are having fun!
I want to have fun on my job. I want to enjoy my job... I want to find that job! I'm so stressed b.c of it... on one hand I just realized I have at least 3 more quarters to go (including this summer quarter) which means at least 9 more months of school left. It's not really short (for some reason I thought I have no time left) but time flies, and I know that by experience. Given the work load 12 weeks will go by really quickly, and the next thing you know I'll be pulling my hair out due to stress. This is something that I will be thinking about 24/7 until I land the job of my dream. But the question is where? If an opportunity presents itself that requires me to give up my life here, would I take it? If it offers everything that I'm looking for, would I move for it? Logically the answer is yes, but when it comes down to it, would I have the courage to go for such a big change? I know there are so many opportunities in Asia, HBA in HK has openings and is looking for ppl. If I play my cards right maybe the the SD3 teacher will help me get my foot into the door in Taiwan (with interior design firms that he works with). I still have that personal connection with the Yeh family and Andy has always advised me to talk to his dad. But I want to be here, specifically, HERE. That was my whole plan right? And it still is. But how much of my plan and what I envisioned for myself, should change and be affected by external factors and unexpected development in other areas of my life?
I feel lost, and this uncertainty and a lack of clarity is making me feel uncomfortable and uneasy again. Perhaps I need to clear my mind before I come up with my POR. Even if it takes lots of re-shuffling of ideas or re-defining what's important to me. One thing that's for sure is I want to keep true to myself, and not lose sight of the big picture at the same time.
Things I need to do, things that I should do, and things that I should consider... aye....