NIIIIIIIIIIIICCCCCCCCCCCEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!

Transporting Levi was a tough task that I'm glad that I got done. It was cool to have Ana in the car with me while he cried his way to his new home... not only did he cry he also decided to take a dump in my car. It was not pleasant, that's all I can say. But the thing is, everything, the smell the pee the crying was all worth it. Nothing beats having a cat like Levi by my side again. It feels great to have him home, here with me. Yes, this apt from now on, will be my new home. Everything is starting to settle into its own place, everything looks right and most importantly, everything feels right. I guess I wasn't so thrilled about the place b/c it felt empty, but now having all my stuff neatly placed in my room, having Levi snoring right behind my blue sofa, I can finally say THIS IS GREAT. OH and I gotta thank sallie's parents, for letting my cat stay at their house for longer than expected. I think Levi misses sallie's mom, he was looking out the window at her in the car and crying... he did that through out the whole ride. Poor cat, his life's a reflection of my life, I apologize for the constant change, the moving, but come to think of it, isn't it exciting?

This is what I wanted, but I was too afraid to go after it, and I cant help but wonder what else in life do I want that I'm just too scared to ask for? I mean the little thing, like letting ppl help me with stuff (moving, carrying grocery) to letting ppl in on my life. It's weird but on one hand I enjoy having ppl around but on other hand I'm reluctant to open myself up to new ppl. Perhaps that's b/c I'm so used to dealing w/ folks that are already in my life and I rather not spend the time or effort to get to know someone new, or is it b/c I'm scared to let someone new in simply b/c I would rather not deal with the possibility of that person leaving me, my life forever? Having had some experience in that area is enough, though what I experienced doesnt make me an expert on this but I would still say it is always easier to be the one who leaves, instead of the one who gets left behind.

Oh n tonight, is the first night I have my room all to myself (and Levi). It was kind of a weird experience, to move in and have all your friends with you for the first two nights... kinda strange at first but it's actually quite nice. It's like having a mini party, a mini sleep over. I've already shared my bed w/ two ppl, man lucky bed of Kim's, it's gotten more action than any of my other bed has ever gotten!! Hahahaha, I'm retarded. BUt yeah, it's quite comfortable, I just hope Levi doesn't poke a hole in the bed when he stretches out his arms and legs. Oh and thanks to Kim my bed looks pretty darn luxurious, I mean for being only 6" off the ground it is looking quite good--- all b/c of the ready made headboard, a.k.a Two Euro Pillows (w. kookoon pillow case of course) on top of a "over the sink shelf". Yes ghetto huh, but creative one must admit.


So this weekend, was fun. A whacked out type of fun... if that makes any sense. Kim's a great wingwoman and Ana's a great promoter-- they sure know how to promote a friend (me) n though they lack subtleties, but in my situation subtleties is over-rated. Ha, what in the world am I talking about right now? dunno I'm starting to get real tired... thanks to Ana's dining room table I was able to get my hw done, therefore able to do jack shit right now and blog and go to bed late. But I can't stay awake anymore.... I'm tired. I need some Zzzzzzzzzzs.