calm down. I tell myself, it's only a fucking account. I can get more in... hahahahaha quit kidding myself.
I think maybe i should change my job afterall, go to somewhere that will not shut down my efforts, that will take my suggestions, that will give me more authority to say yes or no on a project that I FUCKING PUT THE EFFORT IN GETTING. I FUCKING GOT IT! THERE, THERE IS MY QUALITATIVE GOAL AND I"VE ACHIEVED IT! NOW WHAT?
This isn't the first time, and probably won't be the last. Seriously, what are you people thinking? How did you become a VP? A director? An anything? My goodness seriously, quit thinking out of your ass, and start using your head!
I am extremely pissed, and yes that's the fucking truth. I need to get detached from these work.. I need to let go... I need to just drop it because i am not the first to drop it. I cannot babysit, pick shit up, cultivate, and then by the time it gets somewhere someone comes and destroy it, break it, step on it...
gosh. I give up. 99% there... 99% of hope is gone.. GONE.