every year, when I watch the Academy Awards... I think, or day dream about me winning an Oscar. HAHAHAHAHAHA

seriously. my ultimate fantasy--- I want to be an actor. I WANT TO BE AN ACTOR SO I CAN PRETEND TO BE EVERYTHING ELSE THAT I WISH TO BE EVERY NOW AND THEN. I want to be too many things... but it's not at all possible to be that many things unless I'm an actor right? But then again, being an actor is probably the toughest act of all... aye.... I wonder...

anyway. I thought about it and thought about it, I want to be married with kids before 30. I really want to have a family, I've been looking forward to having a family since I was a lil kid... I could care less about the wedding, it's the marriage and the family that's what's important to me. I see my co worker at work, she's still so young and happy and dedicated, a well rounded person; a designer, a wife, and most importantly mom of three children. She's only 32! She's hip, she's just... she inspires me. I want to be that and more!It's not about a time line, it's about an ideal a dream, an accomplishment. I want to be a young mom who can still take care of my own kids and take them out, grow with them. I don't want to be old and tired when my kids are only 5 or something... I want to GROW WITH THEM.

I want to be who my mom was to me and more, I want to be there with them for more than 10 years, and I want to make sure that I can give my kids the best of my years.... I am holding on to my dream... I am staying hopeful.