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I'm in a great mood. And I promised myself that I will not procrastinate and put myself in that shitty situation again. I am very pleased with my model I have to say despite everything, and though it may not be the most beautifully constructed model but it's something that I did spend nearly 24 hrs on and I'm a happy happy happy but tired tired tired girl. Others play house, I play Architect! hahaha.. silly.. when I get tired I become a bit silly... maybe that's b/c I stop making sense or trying to make sense of things and just.. let it be.
This weekend I'll be chilling with my bro for a couple hrs then drive down to SD to spend a nice relaxing weekend. MAINLY! I finally finally get to go to the SD Zoo!!! I know it sounds silly but zoo, is one of the places that I've been wanting to visit. And it's great how things are working out, we have a borrowed place to stay (completely to ourselves w/o the hosts!!) and the girls will be there as well! Well, rephrase, the girls and their significant others... so that makes me and I.L. the 4th couple.. HAHAHAHAHAHAHA it's no wonder that I have same sex dreams considering that all I ever do is hang out with girls... but to be clear, none of my gfs participate in my dreams... that wouldn't be funny. And I wouldn't admit to it even if they did... but NO they were never part of my dreams... speaking of which, why can't I have normal ones? I mean why!! I am perfectly straight!
Anyway... got work tomorrow (dammit) and I best sleep. But I'm so excited about my accomplishment lately and the up coming events I can't sleep..
oh yeah I started meditating today. It is really hard to meditate now, I find it more difficult to... to get rid of thoughts now. It wasn't as difficult before so I think it'll take me a while before I can really clear away all random ideas and find my center. But I did find my "happy place!" So that was a pleasant discovery... the goal is to meditate every morning (minus work days) for at least 10 minutes. I want to really try and get into the habit of doing that and hopefully I'll see some improvement. :)
So sleepy.....