been feeling so strange lately that even i can't take it anymore. can't stand it. what has gotten into me? this isn't me... this really isn't me. I want to be happy, so from this point on I can only think positive thoughts, I will be in control of my emotions, and I will be happy.
today boss briefly asked me what my schedule is like because he has a project for me in mind... wondering what it is. also got a pretty good news from hr as well, it looks like i'll be a working visa holder sooner than later. and i think my business cards are getting made. all very positive, exciting stuff.
had presentation tonight, it was stressful. ms. f.p. totally skipped the first two slides and completely went off track... as much as I hate presentation i had to jump in and make it work.... right... I tried, we'll see if our grades will reflect our effort--- because we really tried. but man..... it was stressful, i was shaking afterwards.
most random things tonight-- all these "Friends".. or very very distant, or "i barely know her" friends called and sought help. i was so tired myself that i'm not sure if i was of any help. but one friend... honestly.... she really went to the wrong person for opinion. perhaps she's not aware of how anti-logging in other ppl's email I am... but she started with "look what i found when I logged into this guy's email b/c I was bored". granted the guy's dumb, for using his b-day for password... but still.. I MEAN SERIOUSLY....... i just can't give any advice when you violate my number one rule--- don't fucking try to log into ppl's email, blog, etc or whatever. fuckers out there, don't expect me to give you any kind of advice when u find something you shouldn't be finding in the first place. all i can say is be prepared to find or see something you don't like once you decide to pry. arghhhhhhh...... i felt bad for being a bit blunt but shit, don't ask me what to do! The answer is nothing! Because u weren't supposed to know to begin with. ALSO, he's not even a bf.. just a guy she's interested in.
honestly.. these ppl that supposedly is asking me for help is only because they think they can use me... no i'm sorry but u are wrong. i won't draft for u, i won't do cad for u, I won't draw perspectives for you. i'll listen, and give you encouraging words, but if u are really trying to find someone to do your work for u.. i'm the wrong person. Not even if u pay me. I don't even wanna do my own freelance job... what makes you think i would do your hw for u....... granted she didn't flat out ask but she tried, many times to lead the conversation in that direction--- sorry i'm not stupid enough to take the bait.
argh.... all these weird, random stuff happening. and dad deciding to ... give himself more vacation days suddenly... hmmmm yeah I trust that he knows what he is doing.
i need to get out of this funk. dad needs to rest, ppl need to do their own work and not invade other's privacy. if we can all do this, then the world would be a better place. n of course, the world would be a even brighter, happier place.. if the bf and I could finally be close together. really, is that too much to ask for?