is it a bit silly of me to tell a person that I'm a much better friend than a potential candidate? I mean that's something I used to do while we were younger and given the age that I'm at now, and knowing that expectation comes with age, is it pathetic and almost naive of me to ask & to think that a friendship can exist between a girl and a boy when they were just perfect strangers a few months ago? Hello stranger can turn into hello friend, right? RIGHT. I still believe in friendship between the opposite sex. I think ppl should be open minded and it is always good to gain a friend than none at all! Or so I think...
it's rare I meet someone and have the intention of wanting to really be friends... it's either "oh please don't ever call me again" and then can't wait to run the opposite direction or "wow I'm crushing". Of course I hardly crush, unless that's a result of running away and running into something. Either way, I want to be friends. He's too great of a person to not be friends with, but then again that's probably not my choice since I rejected him enough times to make a person wanna do what I normally do, run the opposite direction. BUT FRIENDSHIP SHOULD ALWAYS BE AN OPTION NO MATTER HOW OLD WE ARE RIGHT!!! Right, I have to be right.
Aye, it's raining. How many ppl are affected by the rain like I do? On an emotional level? Oh wait I'm in the red zone, nevermind. I'm affect by anything and everything when I'm in the red zone, blah... and I crave random food... pig's blood for example, heh that sounds kind of gross.
So today I wasted my time and did absolutely no work, even in class I managed to just fall right asleep. BUT! Got my midterm back and I got an 88, a B+, pretty much what I hoped to get. So nooooooooo complaints! Now that I know how to study for her test, I'm pretty sure I'll get my A on the final. The only thing that's left that's on my "must do and get it right list" is the damn project... for the same class she expects us to visit the central Library or something and either do a written report, or a visual project explaining all 20 different stylistic influences we've seen and studied from class; from the Paleolithic period to the Islamic period. What is she, crazy? And what kind of an architecture is this!!! 20 different design influences from that many cultures? IS IT EVEN POSSIBLE? Okay it is, but so what? WHY DO WE HAVE TO DO THIS!!! I know it will be beneficial to me in the future as a designer but at the same time, WHY DO WE HAVE TO DO THIS! IT IS ALMOST THANKSGIVING AND PPL HAVE TURKEYS TO EAT, FAMILIES TO VISIT, ETC THAN TO F' VISIT A DAMN LIBRARY!!!! On a brighter note, I get to go on a field trip with another class to visit the Donald Trump's Golf Resort construction since my teacher's the one working on those 20 mil homes!!! How exciting! Ah, when will I get to be in charge of an interesting project like that? I hope to do hospitality, and retail... and some residential on the side... actually commercial spaces such as offices would be quite fun and challenging as well... hmmm at this moment, I'll take anything. I need ppl to pay for my food!!! HAHAHAHA
alright silly. I should sleep... I can't even get myself to start working on a HW let along getting someone to let me design something in real life. Aye, quit day dreaming.