godverdomme... I am wide awake. WIDE WIDE AWAKE. and tomorrow morning I'll be DEAD DEAD ASLEEP. This is tough. TOUGH! Why am I still up looking at random ppl's blog? Why am I still up blogging even? THAT"S BECAUSE IT IS SUPPOSED TO BE 6:44PM!!! Arghhh.

I feel much better today though. I found my drive and motivation in UCLA's lost and found. Apparently lighting design is quite a science and now I'm intriqued. Yes, me, interested in school once again. This is probably why I shouldn't go back to Taiwan too often because that place makes me lazy and sucks the drive out of me. BUT! I am still contemplating moving back. Just checked my program schedule, it looks like I'll be able to go back in the end of 2006 afterall! hehehe I miscalculated, I have 10 quarters not 9, perfect! This way I can enjoy my winter and then come back and finish the last quarter, worry about my job, and if IT doesn't work out due to this stupid second class citizen (oh wait, who am I kidding, I'm not even a citizen I'm just a visa holder) I'll just pack up and leave! Yup... I will embrace change from now on instead of wasting so much time and energy fighting and complaining over unexpected changes. I mean I should learn and know by now that the only thing that's consistent in life, is change. So if I have to relocate, then I will relocate-- not a big deal. If I don't find a husband after all of my friends are married off, not a big deal, I will just make sure Levi stays healthy and lives forever...

So from now on, my new year's resolution is 1) remember what Bruce told me and make an effort to change, 2) worry less, laugh more, 3) make sure to meditate and more outdoor activities, less night club activities... HAHAHAHAH okay I crack myself up.

either way, my new year's resolution is I will be conscious of the things I need to make improvement on and I will learn to go with the flow. And for now, I need to adjust this jetlag crap.